100th Post : And A Birthday

As I type this out on the day before my birthday .. not to mention a major exam paper- Medicine .. I probably should be studying instead and yet here I am compelled to share my thoughts to the public.

I'm feeling .. well nostalgic , so bear with me as I may burst out into a song, recite a poem or tell a story whatever it maybe this is my space and here you are reading this entry.

It used to bother me not being able to celebrate my birthday ... on time . that was how spoiled I was. It's been nearly 5 years since I celebrated my birthday on the day itself .. be it with my family or friends back home. Now I just couldn't even care less. I've grown , changed or I've probably been sensitized to the fact already and I'm just numb from going through the course.

For the past 5 years today I've realized how much I've grown and learnt throughout my experiences here .. be it being away from home, meeting new friends and talking to patients. I don't really know what hit me .. but it did . No doubt I do experience the occasional "What the hell am I doing here ?.. I've just wasted my teen years .. can somebody just shoot me right now" but it's usually when I'm cramming in for exams. 

I've realized how much I've grown now compared to before , how much more matured my thinking has become . I like how I've change .. which then hit me again , if I never took this course or never came here .. would I have been the same person as I am today ? I wouldn't say i was a terrible person before .. but I can say I was childish. Superficial . Someone I don't want to be now. The thought just scares me . 

Which just reminded me of a poem we used to read in high school .. I wonder if I took the road not taken in the end ? Have I made that decision yet ? So many questions left unanswered .   

That all being said I'm thankful that I'm still still close to my friends back home as if we never left high school. We are still able to talk for hours ( and I don't mean gossip because seriously who has the time to gossip nowadays ? )  But we talk about our lives now ..how different it has become and how we are all leading different lives now. These are the people that i truly cherish and love. 

Anyway this post is just want to remind myself to be thankful. And hopefully to learn from experiences in life to become a better person each passing day. 

Happy Birthday to myself , and older and wiser me.